thanksgiving weekend.

(adrianne & i)

hey bloggers, the few pictures above are from thursday & friday, there's alot more pictures, but i posted most of them on my myspace. thanksgiving was better than i expected, my family and i went to orlando to spend thanksgiving with my dad's coworker's family and ofcourse there was food. there was filipino food, like pancit (noodles) & cassava cake (filipino desert). there was also mash potatoes,bread rolls, ham, and bbq ribs. adrianne and i took pictures at the park and we walked around her neighborhood. once we got back, we decided to watch HappySlip and ndtitanlady on youtube, and we also watched the Madtv video about the black guy asking a girl for her number. i've watched that video over 10 times, and it never gets old. the title is: can i have your number? or something like that :P (check them out, if you want a good laugh)
anyway, on "black friday" we visited 2 malls, and an outlet. i got a beatles tee from delias, and eyeliner from M.A.C. my family and i also ate at the cheesecake factory,mmmm. oh and i saw a handbag at juicy couture that i wanted to get (picture below) there was also other things i wish i could've got, but obviously i didn't. when i get a job,i'm definitely going to splurge on these types of things,ha.

p.s. i love juicy's ads.

hope everyone is having a good weekend so far. x



i have a feeling this 4-day weekend will be great. so since tomorrow is thanksgiving, i would just like to say i'm thankful for my family,friends,and basically everything i've been blessed with. i'm pretty excited for tomorrow since my family and i are going to orlando to spend thanksgiving with my dad's coworker's family. i get to see adrianne again, i'm excited to chill with her and i possibly might be sleeping over? oh and we might go shopping on friday too. hmm...a weekend consisting of food,shopping,family and friends sounds good to me :]


i'm empty, i need fulfilling.

(by the way, i didn't wear this outfit to school today, i felt like dressing up.)

my day was good, i'm looking forward to thanksgiving break though. since tomorrow is the day before break, most of my teachers told me we'll be watching a movie and were just going to relax. hopefully i can convince my 6th period teacher to let me stay in his class...most likely he'll let me skip 7th, but if that plan fails, i'll probably just go to the library. oh and it's exciting that christmas is a few weeks away, time flied by really quick. i'm glad though because it means i'm gonna be out of here in no time. even though 2011 is 3 years away, i'm just trying to be optimistic. oh and i had a weird dream last night...long story short, i was almost attacked by 3 snakes, and then this girl saved me and she took me to her house and it was made out of pillows and blankets, and we kept walking up stairs and we started to run away from something and the walls started closing in on me and as i was being smothered by pillows, my alarm went off. hmm, maybe i should look up the meaning of my dream on google :P


i want to go away, far far away.

what's up bloggers, there's 3 more days until thanksgiving and that means 2 more days of school (for me)
hey,for the ones in high school...
have you noticed freshman try really hard to act like they're soo cool?
when i was a freshman i was never like that, these freshmen seek for too much attention. now i understand why upperclassmen hate freshmen, just observing them, they can be really annoying. i'm just being honest, but it doesn't mean i don't talk to any freshmen,there's a few i can actually tolerate.generally,i'm a nice girl,i swear :]
ohhh and i can't stand it when girls glare at someone even though they didn't even say or do anything to them. (happens to me alot) and i don't talk that much in most of my classes, i'm pretty quiet. seriously,i want my life to fast forward to graduation because i'm tired of high school.


sunday morning.

currently, i'm procrastinating, i should be finishing my make-up work for school, and i should be studying for a test, but obviously i'd rather be blogging :P
well anyway, i woke up to my mom pounding on my door saying "get up,were going to church!"
i was surprised,we haven't been to church in awhile....exactly 6 months (my mom mentioned it) pffht,like i would keep track,ha.
i was annoyed my parents suddenly decided to go to church, and they wanted me to eat breakfast,take a shower,get ready in 30 minutes. one of my pet peeves is being rushed, i already was in a g-r-u-m-p-y mood since i didn't get enough sleep, and being rushed to get ready is something i definitely don't want when i wake-up.

so after i ate a cup of ramen noodles (roast chicken,mmm.)
i went into the shower and when i turned on the water, it was freezing! (my sisters used up all the hot water) i wasn't going to tolerate taking a shower with cold water, i just got done being sick and i think taking a shower in cold water + going out in cold weather= hello, runny nose.
i'm prone to getting sick, so with my luck, i'd catch a cold again, and i can't miss anymore school.
my mom started bitchin', saying i just didn't want to go to church and i was lying about the cold water.
i was willing to go, and to prove that to her...i found a huge pot and filled it with water, my mom thought i was going to cook something, and she freaked out when i told her i was going to boil water so i could take a shower. she was like "it's too late now, you don't want to go to church anyway,so don't bother."
*sigh* i think i'm going to relax and listen to sunday morning by maroon 5, it's also such a fun song to sing along to.



so today my family and i went to ikea (in orlando) and after going to ikea we discovered an amazing mall (millenia mall)
as we entered...i automatically saw Zara, i haven't been in Zara circa last year, that was when i lived in germany. i miss the european stores,especially H&M :(
anyway, sadly, i fell in love with a pair of gray boots, but i had to say goodbye to them because my mom wasn't willing to pay $40. then the highlight of my day was for the first time, i went into urban outfitters. i found these 2 cute shirts (until i saw the price) there was also another shirt i found in the clearance section but they didn't have my size. -_-
oh & jezzz-us, they had the hugest forever 21 store right across urban outfitters.
ughh,and the leggings were ridiculously overpriced in every store i went into today.
well at least thanksgiving is right around the corner, we might spend it with my dad's co-worker's family,i'm pretty excited since i get along with his daughters.
well goodnight bloggers, i feel like my mocha frappuccino is wearing off,the only thing i got today,ha.


money, that's what i want.

whats up bloggers, it feels like i haven't been on here for awhile. well ever since i broke my cell i don't go on the internet as often (everyday) because i had access to the internet on my cell, and now i have to rely on my parents computer. *sigh* so anyway, my mom and i went to target tonight...and as i was looking in the clearance section, i found an adorable black cardigan that was $8. i also wanted a dress that was $14 but ofcourse my mom bought the cardigan. don't you just hate it when you find something cute but you can't buy it because you're broke? ugh, just one of the many reasons i need to start working. i'm determined to buy that dress, and once i do, i'll definitely post pictures on here.

note to self: i should start looking for thrift stores.



my weekend was pretty good, my mom told me that i might be un-grounded soon,can i get a "woot-woot?!" ha. i feel like my life is getting better,and i'm feeling less depressed. and somehow i managed to get through school today, even though i only got 2 hours of sleep last night. i guess patience is a virtue after all :]


we used to be friends,a long time ago.

when i left germany, i was hopeful i'd keep in touch with all my friends,that even though i was moving,nothing would change...but everything did change. within the week after i left, i constantly received comments on my myspace like "i miss you,come back!" slowly, everyone just stopped keeping in contact, weeks passed, and it turned into months. i was heartbroken. at that point,i realized that the people i considered my friends, weren't really there for me; as much as i wanted to be there for them. i feel like i deserve it though, for more reasons than karma. now when i occasionally talk to them, i sense that our friendship,the bond we had, isn't as strong as it used to be. Because were physically apart, it's hard to include each other in our lives, the phone and the computer can't fill that void. Now that they've moved on, i'm still trying to move on. it might be easier for others, but for me, it's too hard to forget someone that made an impact on me. it's too hard to remember all those good times without feeling like i want to cry, because now all i have is memories.

lucky me.

so last night i snuck out to chill with my friend, we popped some pills and then we went to my community's pool area to smoke. as we were leaving...my phone fell out of my jacket pocket and my phone fell in the pool.
ofcourse i was like "ohhh shitttttttttt" long story short, my phone is broken,so i'm hoping and praying it'll turn back on. i spilled water on my phone once but i think dropping it into a pool is much worse. anyway, i had so much fun last night though. hahaha


Konichiwa Bitches

The only reason I look forward to going to school on thursdays is because the asian club meets. last week I learned some chinese, & this week we've been learning japanese, and it's so fun. if you want to know how to say "my name is..." in japanese, it's: namae wa (your name) desu. pronounced: "na-me wah (your name) des."
they don't pronounce their u's.
I'm still waiting for my club t-shirt though, but once I get it...I'll definitely post it up here.
check out our website:


waves of joy

So today is my baby sister's birthday :]

^this picture was taken in the morning, she has 3 other gifts.
p.s. i think it's lame my parents bought her a shopping cart, if i had money i would've bought her something extravagant.

^i know it looks like she's sorta crying,but that's how she smiles,ha.

Overall,today was alright, the weather was weird though, it was extremely warm in the morning (wrong day to wear a blazer) , then it started to rain really hard,and once it stopped, it was sunny again.
Well i'm off to go eat some
spaghetti,puto (asian dessert), and cake ofcourse,mmm.

p.s. i have 2 other sisters,their twins. (just in case you were wondering)

byeee,hope everyone had a good wednesday! x


life is an awful ugly place not to have a best friend

That's my best friend Andrea, and i miss her soooo sooo much :(
she's currently in texas and i haven't seen her for more than 9 months.
i'm trying to save money to visit her...so hopefully i'll get to see her summer of 2009.
i'm determined to find a way to see her again, fly, drive, take a train, WALK (just kidding)
well talking about her makes me feel a bit sad, so i think i'm gonna go out for a smoke.



suprisingly, today went by super fast. hopefully tomorrow will be the same. so homecoming is this weekend which means; spirit week. todays theme was dress like some sort of character/movie character. today basically felt like halloween since I saw so much people dressed up in a costume. (except me) I saw a gorilla, donald duck, mario & luigi, the joker, & bleeker (character from Juno) I'm way too tired to think & I feel really lazy...but because of my recent procrastination, I have to do a double bubble map for ceramics and take an online test for english 2. it doesn't sound too much, but it really is :P well since my eyelids feel like 30 pound weights are on them...I think I'm going to take a nap.


I really wish I could've lived in the 60's because everyone seemed really friendly,outgoing, and laidback. well obviously drugs had an effect on that era, but I loved how their style was basically effortless. everything was just like "go with the flow". When I thought about the 60's, I started to ponder if I even owned any clothes that could actually be worn back then. i searched my closet but I didn't find anything...so I decided to search in my
mom's closet. unexpectedly, i found this floral dress. I'm not too sure if it has a 60's vibe to it, but I'd also consider it vintage? (tell me what you think)
& the best part of my discovery is...she has even more dresses that I'll make mine :]


To do list:

1)convince my mom I need a fuckin' permit.
2)get some money,cause mo' money, mo' bitches. lol jk :P
3)find a job,even though its less likely since I'm 15.
4)pass the FCAT, maybe I'll find a way to escape that horrid test I've heard of. my dentist suggested I talk to my counselor since I'm new to florida...I doubt that'll work though.
5) to find a willing person to hook me up w/some xanex or diet pills.
6) learn how to play a song on my guitar.
7) hopefully write a song with kaya :]
8) get through this school year!

vicious cycle

my heart is pounding louder now, & all I can feel is my heart pounding. this indescriable feeling is overwhelming me and I can barely breathe.
this certain feeling comes and goes, and I'm always hopeful I don't fall as hard as I did before, but I just end up falling harder,picking up broken pieces of my heart once again. when I find myself in this confusing situation,a battle between infatuation and finding love constantly possesses my thoughts.

physical affection

my toes begin to feel numb, I'm shivering,it's suddenly below zero in this empty room. as my body begins to tremble, my heart starts to beat faster...I need to feel you, I want to feel you.

Dress up


Airshow was a no go

So today my family and i were suppose to go to an airshow but our van wasn't working, so we just stayed home...and i woke up at 7 for no reason -_- lame.
I did take pictures.
I usually don't smile that obnoxiously, but as my sister was taking the picture...my mom made me laugh.
Anyway, hope everyone is having a good sunday so far, i get to watch Skins tonight :D
I think i have some homework to do,later bloggers. x

I left my heart in Hawaii

  1. I miss waking up to see a bird perched right outside my window chirping softly.
  2. I miss the perfect weather.
  3. I miss the drives around the island.
  4. I miss the humid breeze.
  5. I miss how the beaches were never to far away.
  6. I miss watching the waves and how salty my lips would taste on the ride home.
  7. I miss watching tom & jerry with my grandpa on boring weekends.
  8. I miss my friends, especially the ones I never got to say goodbye to.
  9. I miss that the air in the morning was refreshingly cool.
  10. I miss all of the surroundings I used to see everyday.
  11. I miss the outgoing (cute) boys.
  12. I miss how simple my life was.
  13. I miss the walks to kunia shopping center with marvie.
  14. I miss getting a citrus squeeze from jamba juice.
  15. I miss how starbucks was always freezing cold :p
  16. I miss curly fries from jack in the box
  17. I miss how laid back everything was.
  18. I miss the smell of leis when their fresh.
  19. I miss how beautiful Oahu looks at night.
  20. I miss seeing the huge mysterious mountains.
  21. I miss my family back there.
  22. I miss the freedom I had.
  23. I miss the culture.
  24. I miss everything I took for granted.
  25. I miss the long roads that seemed like they would never end.
  26. I miss shave ice.
  27. I miss riding my bike around my neighborhood when there was nothing better to do.
  28. I miss late nights at marvie's house.
  29. I miss the long ride home because of the traffic.
  30. I miss going to kayla's house to see their dog twix, and ofcourse chillin' with the people that lived there too.
  31. I miss chicken katsu and when rowell would make fun of me cause I always pronounced "katsu" wrong >__^
  32. I miss walking around waikiki.
  33. I miss the rice cakes (I think that's what their called?) in chinatown.
  34. I miss malasadas!! mmm :D
  35. I miss every little thing that makes up the island of Oahu.

Lil' Angel

I love Gwen Stefani's new line of perfume, i bought Lil' angel a few months ago (as you can see to the left) and i absoultely adore it, i dont use it everyday, only if i'm going somewhere besides school. i also wanted to buy Music, but i'll just add that to my christmas list. Well I'm off to go take pictures, ciao :]


Strawberry Fields.

You can probably tell I'm supahh bored but I've realized that I've been constantly listening to the beatles.
& I have most of their songs already memorized.for the past week, I've caught myself singing their songs like; all you need is love,don't let me down, yellow submarine,lucy in the sky with diamonds,& revolution.
who doesn't love songs inspired through drugs?haha ;P
don't judge/hate,but my goal is to try the drugs I haven't taken at least once,excluding meth,heroin,and coke though.
it's 9:32 right now, and I'm suprisingly sleepy.
+ I have to wake up at 7 to get ready since my family & I are going to an airshow tomorrow. sounds fun? possibly, but getting up at 7 am doesn't sound too great.
goodnight bloggers,peace & love. x


So I love reading teen vogue and in the october issue I was reading about a girl named "Kaya Scodelario" and it said she was on a british tv show titled "Skins" and I decided to check it out, as I watched it for the first time...I fell in love with it. I get confused with their vocab sometimes but fortunately I have this british kid named scotty in few of my classes,and he translates words for me. ha,it's great. + my friend becca & I always ask him to say random things like "potato,tomato,water,tar tar,etc." the funny thing is he says water like "wa-ah" and tar tar like "ta-ta" we just love his british accent! & lets just say he's not good looking though :x
anyway, that's really the only thing I look forward to every sunday night.

Gotta get bad, before it gets good.

All i really want right now is to be understood. nothing in florida seems to satisfy me,for example, the clothing stores here basically have the same things, but at least last sunday I found a cute scarf,skirt & ring at charlotte russe + a pair of Ralph Lauren shoes at Macys :P
anyway, another complaint I have is going to viera high school, the girls at my school are extremely bitchy and unconsiderate. my previous school, which was in germany, never had such arrogant and ignorant kids. I miss H&M,the simple walks to the commissary to buy pretzels and a mocha frap,the skatepark,going to fests, and I especially miss my friends in germany. The city i live in now lacks excitement and simplicity.things just need to get better soon, cause my life is so bland right now. i'm ready to turn 18 and get out of florida.